Oops, a certain Kelsey needs to stop updating with memes and cracky d9 stuff for a second.

Let's see.... it's already nearing that stage of the semester where I try to grasp one aspect of my life, and feel the others slip away. My classes feel like a dream right now, because I haven't had a class since Friday and that's about as long as my memory holds.

Classes: Apparently the billion notecards I did for taxonomy are unnecessary, as I had based them from the book and they should be based from lab and lecture. Lab quiz coming up on the 16th. Just had a Russian test on a lot of writing words ... I am sad that I memorized it all right before class, because I can't remember most of it now. Journalism has a lot of homework assignments, but it's a very memorable course -- have to cover a speech for it this week.

As for Tuesday/Thursday classes, I missed Ethics last Tuesday and am kinda confused as to what the heck is going on. It's just...so....I don't know, when are we turning things in? It says something's due on the syllabus, but... It's always the under the radar classes that bite you in the end, but I can't figure out a way to make this class worth it at all haha. Parks is kinda quiet, too. Just reading and trying to participate in lecture at 8 am because the other 4 people in the class don't really feel like it.

AGC: New project: Scan 435 slides. Slide feeder is being difficult. Beginning to near the end of the easy part of my bibliography work, though, so it's good to have a new project. I just am not too fond of slides.

It's difficult, because I was sick last week/due to Sun Star obligations, I am just missing work /constantly/. The time sheet layout is that every two weeks I report the work I did the week before and the work I did the next week. So if I reported 20 hours, and only did 16, I put 16 on the next time sheet and work 20...but then hey, I might only work 16 and... it goes on and on. Really bad system for someone who doesn't know what tomorrow holds.

Sun Star: Just finished my second story, and started working on the calendar this week. I am so so scared of this right now, because my self esteem issues came back but.. we'll see! Had some more disastrous stuff happen with Man on the Street this week, so I won't be covering that for a while. I am really bad at photography, since I haven't had a class in it ever, but I will still be covering photos for my project this week. I'll just...take a lot! Only one project + the calendar, so should be easy... 6 or so hours of work.

Room: It's really freaking messy again. :| Not as bad as before, but there's just....stuff...everywhere. And I need to do dishes. I want to clean it up so I can sip tea and do homework on my floor and be happy. I think the state of my mind is really affected by the conditions I live in, especially since I spend all my free time at my dorm instead of the library or the AGC.

Future stuff: Finishing up FAFSA, and got taxes out of the way in the midst of that. Need to mail that off, as well as respond to letters from two people..one a couple weeks late, one a couple months late. *shame* FAFSA is useful for scholarships, but I should look more into those.

I also need to get a summer job squared away, STAT. I won't have AGC to fall back on this summer. I'd like to stay in town so I don't have to move but I suppose free housing would be great, too. Only..most summer jobs are stolen by January so... :| Now that scholarship stuff is working pretty well, must get a real job.

I had a neat idea for an original drawing, as well as several district 9 drawings (with accompanying fanfic i am so ashamed blame kazz) but I really need to focus on...Seattle, self betterment, etc. I don't want to starve myself of this like I did last semester, but I can't just survive on saltines because I feel like typing up fic.


WOO I LOVE MY LIFE except I have really low self esteem and am really lonely all the time. I just...I want to make it all fit into a box and I'll be happy, but it won't, so... we'll see how it goes!

( Really long survey because I am lonely and tired of homework )

Ugh... I am rarely sick, but my body decided to pick most of January and apparently part of February to catch up. It's not like...bed-ridden feverish bad, but that almost makes it worse because besides having a fever of 102 or throwing up my innards, I have no idea what my limit is and assume I'm supposed to ignore it and press on. When I left Canada and during part of the beginning of school, I had throat and sinus problems...now I have a ton of stomach problems :| Like, Saturday I felt queasy, Sunday I felt like I did 50 crunches then got punched in the stomach, yesterday was back to queasy in the evening, today is... queasy, I suppose. I could hardly make it through my first class.

Decided to take my second class and my first shift off...I wanted to go, but I figured leaving in the middle of class/proofreading would be more detrimental to those around me than just not going at all. I can't miss my lab at 2pm, so I hope I am better by then. I don't have many breads, most everything I do have requires cooking and I have to do dishes to do that and....lots of standing up is not fun. Drinking mint green tea, hope that helps. I had some chips.

I screwed up on MOTS ("Man on the Street", interviewing people around campus) by not pressing two people for their last names when they didn't give them to me. Only can use one person now, and his answer to the question was "They don't" (to "How do student jobs around campus affect your life?") .... feel pretty dumb about that. My editor blames it on herself, but..:(

The copy editor is another story. The Editor-in-Chief is very understanding and promoting, and the copy editor is very..critiquecritiquecritique. I love them both for their jobs; I need both so much. My first article was.......grossly over wordcount, so the copy editor cut it down (that's his job), but....then it made no sense, I guess, so he basically had to rewrite it. :( He did a lot better at it than me; I'm beginning to learn journalism theory but sometimes what I learn in class is a little behind what I need to know for working for a newspaper. Oh well, it's great they let me have the job without much background, and all the stuff I did wrong is easily fixed.

The paper comes out today; haven't seen it yet. I feel bad that it still says my name on it as author, haha. Hopefully in the future more of it attributes to me, but I appreciate that the editors rescued it.

Besides that, classes are basically memorizememorizememorize. I should probably work on that homework during my day three hours off. I'd like to crawl into bed but....idk. maybe I'll do that for a little while.

a less depressing EDIT: Here's the link to the electronic copy of the article, by the way :D He's my boss right now. http://tomhewitt.net/sunstar/?p=254

Editedit: Okay, miniature raging over them taking out an awesome quote about graduate students and another about publication preparation. :| Two of my favorite things he said. OH WELL.

kelseychan: jess realized my obsession
kelseychan: and is like 'man, kels, first watchmen, now this'
kelseychan: and i just burst out laughing
kelseychan: like
kelseychan: she thinks it began with watchmen
OzoneInTheNative: rofl.
OzoneInTheNative: she was obviously not around during the zim days
kelseychan: i know right
kelseychan: foo.
kelseychan: freaking me and zim
OzoneInTheNative: freaking EVERYONE and zim
OzoneInTheNative: it didnt even air in my country
OzoneInTheNative: and yet i downloaded it and obsessed
kelseychan: rofl
kelseychan: ....but
kelseychan: me and red
kelseychan: ------omg
kelseychan: and i was just saying i want christopher as a boyfriend
kelseychan: *holds head in hands*
kelseychan: I'D COME SO FAR
OzoneInTheNative: lmfaooooooooo
kelseychan: WHY DID YOU REINTRODUCE GREEN BUG ALIENS TO ME
kelseychan: WHY
OzoneInTheNative: laughing so hard
OzoneInTheNative: omg
OzoneInTheNative: he even wears a red vest

Edit:

*BREATH* My wrists hurt a lot but so much happens every day so I might as well write it down now, although I need to be at Jess' in five minutes.

Systematic Botany: THIS CLASS. OH MY WORD. Imagine 60 minutes of rapid-fire vocabulary, and the book is much the same. I love it so so much, but it is going to take all of my attention (as is everything this semester). Possibly going to be killer during the peak-times of the semester such as midterms and finals. I'm worried that it's secretly easy for those who took plant biology, the prereq I don't have. This is judging from the types of questions she asked... the other person without the prereq works at the greenhouses, so. For those who don't know, this is a plant identification course. MY FIRST BOTANY COURSE :)

Advanced Russian II: Pretty awesome. I worked on the assignment a couple days before class, as opposed to a couple minutes haha. It's much more teacher-assignment-oriented than workbook-oriented so thankfully it isn't as mind-numbing as workbook work. Going to focus on conversational Russian, written Russian, and oral tradition Russian. My last Russian course :( I love my classmates so much; my 4th semester with most of them.

Journalism (News Reporting and Writing): NNNNNNNGH I LOVE THIS COURSE. Our teacher has been editor for a ton of well-known newspapers; he's a visiting professor. Basically the department paid a ton of money so he could teach. He looks like a stereotypical editor too hahaha. First day of class I asked what it took to be a journalist and he said bachelor's degree.....is there a point to a minor in journalism? Oh well, haha. Doesn't matter because....

Sun Star: New job! The day after I was told I could be let go from the AGC, I saw an ad for a science journalist for the Sun Star (student newspaper) which is....uh something that never existed until now but I've been pining for since last semester and was considering proposing to them. They invited me to a meeting and I raised my hand to volunteer for various pieces even though I don't work for them haha. I'm writing for next week's paper, due thursday. They're letting me interview for the scientist piece (gonna do my current boss for my first piece). I'm also doing "Man on the Street" where I interview a couple students about something going on at the university. Taking a few photos of the student job fair Wednesday too.

BEST PART: I am a 'freelance journalist' for them, meaning my work doesn't count for the 20-hour-week cap for students here. So....working 20 hours at the AGC this week, next week I'm working 20 hours plus I'll be paid for an additional 7 hours of working for the Sun Star yessss. Next week I will hopefully also be accepted to be the calendar coordinator/graphic designer, where I post about events around campus and am there if they need a quick graph or something. That'll be about 6 hours a week, which I'll then cross 14 hours at the AGC.

Books: Trying to read more. Started a 1956 book on Nellie Bly, the female reporter from the late 1800s. Also picked up a book on 13 famous reporters. As far as NRM goes, Mission 66 was recommended to me and I think I'll read that next. LIBRARIES ARE AWESOME.

Food: Also trying to use up all my carrots before they go bad. Have so far made carrot cookies (delicious but as nutritious as carrot cake) and carrot patties (not super awesome but I had them with melted cheese over rice with sausage soy sauce egg). Wanna make Indian carrot soup but don't have the ingredients and I spent the evening obsessing over the interview tomorrow instead of going to the store haha.

LIFE IS AWESOME. But busy.

Sorry for the tl;dr entry. This has all happened since Friday, my word. LOVIN' IT.

Trippy dream.A different alarm went off than the one I set, so I slept in 45 minutes :| Good thing I was going to be getting up 45 minutes early for...no real reason.

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I was in Canada, and the timeline of the dream is a little screwy. There was going to be a meeting on a boat trip for a Russia team meeting, so I was trying to utilize the skytrain system to get there. I didn't go with the other people because I wasn't ready when they were leaving. I accidentally missed my stop on the train, riding it to the end (some sort of shopping area near an airport). I started riding it back, but I was in a front seat where there were no walls or seatbelts and I was....sitting in a sort of plastic tub for some reason. It was difficult to hold on so I got off with another girl a few stops early.

We looked for where the stop was, but unfortunately there were a lot of snowy woods. A couple animals speaking Russian helped me get through them...but I wasn't good enough to understand them so we just stuck to really simple questions. When I got back to the house I realized I'd brought my luggage but had left my purse, leaving me in Canada without a passport. I had to leave that day so I was flipping out a little. Woke up soon after.

At some point I also had a pigeon as a friend and he ate food out of my hand.

Breaking the rules because I hate disabling comments. Talking about something in front of tons of people and never discussing it again is giving me bad vibes haha. Just...sorry :D

┣List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
┣Don't say who they are.
┣Disable comments.
┗Never discuss it again

Stolen from hako_neko

1. I wish I could be the friend you keep saying you don't have. I want to be there for you.

2. Part of the reason I didn't accept yet is because I'm worried our lifestyles are too different. It also hasn't worked out in the past for me.

3. It's been enough years, I wish you could acknowledge that I harbor no negative thoughts towards you and that you're a good friend of mine.

4. I've spent so much time trying to figure out how to help you to get better on your own, but I'm starting to think you might need more than that. It's not as if there's been someone in your life (myself included) that has respected you when you try, and I feel terrible for that.

5. I feel more and more like a burden to you, like i never did enough to make up for how horrible I was to you in the past. I feel kinda like the token leeching crazy friend right now.

6. Whenever I see you post or comment, I burst out laughing because of how witty you are. I wish we still talked.

7. You've improved so much but I feel like you need to work on your story/art a bit more before it could be accepted by the audience you deserve. (this applies to several people :x)

8. I want for you to be more secure in yourself; I've respected you so much over the years to the point of you being one of the few 'idols' I've ever had.

9. I understand now what you feel like when people misunderstand how you're acting. I guess we both need to work on social skills....let's hope a decade from now we can still be ourselves but not accidentally make anyone angry at us.

10. I wish you updated more on what's going on in your life outside of work and hobbies, even if you seemed to be going through rough self esteem times in that area.

I feel very warm and fuzzy right now. It is always good to write an lj entry when in such a mood.


First day of classes had its ups and downs. Each semester here, I have gradually gotten earlier and earlier classes....and this semester is probably the bottom of the pit in that regard (I hope). Two back to back hour and a half classes tuesday and thursday beginning at 8 am, and one at 9:15 am Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Only had two of my five classes today...also went back to work.

Outdoor Recreation Planning: This is my 8am class. I was really confused as to what this class was -- I got the textbook and it said 'survey' so I thought 'oh no lots of trigonometry'...but no, it's statistical surveying as in...asking why people like parks. Perrrfect. Very applicable to city parks, which I'll end up working with, even though Alaska is kinda in love with its state and national parks (with good reason).

There are supposed to be 4 people, but only two (including myself) showed up today, so...no coffee, 8 am, hour and a half of your teacher looking you in the eyes and pausing whenever you take notes is....unpleasant. The class will be awesome, I think -- somewhat boring, but awesome. Final project is submitting/presenting a management plan to a national agency D: Hooray for 400-level classes.

Environmental Ethics: My last core class! Yessss! Hopefully will help me defend my somewhat conflicting views a bit better. Have barely any time to get from first class to this one, so I'm starving and really have to use the rest room for an hour and a half. Much larger class, so I can draw -- I missed a couple things today zoning out, though. Oops. Despite being a core class, I think it will be really helpful.

Work: Not much for me to do -- finishing up the readme on the data report, doing some website proofing over the weekend. Boss has been very up and down about whether they'll have funding to keep me on much longer, and now that our NASA grant is less money than anticipated, I'll probably be let go this semester. I dislike the stress of changing jobs when dealing with everything else, but I think I'm ready to leave this job and look for something in the greenhouses or at the student newspaper. I just hope I have time to find another job.

Car: I knew about the radiator leak, but I didn't know that all the coolant in my reservoir would disappear over break :| Also, Kelsey learned the difference between end caps and caps... in that end cap damage results in needing an entire new radiator. Guess who's going to be spending $600 on her car next week? :D Thankfully the stalling problem seems to be fixed -- still want them to check for transmission leaks, though. My tranny fluid being low caused the stalling, but it really wasn't that long since I topped it off. Kelsey wants to learn more about cars.

That's about it -- I know it's only been one day of class, but if I keep this up with somewhat less procrastination, this semester will hopefully be pretty bearable. I want to hold on to tonight -- being able to read and drink tea in my quiet clean room under the guise of 'studying'. It really is a different world compared to cramming in late assignments between classes and being unable to eat or sleep.

Kinda back to old habits....hanging out on the computer doing nothing instead of making use of my time, heh. I need to stop this, especially when I have not-real-life-stuff to get through (i.e., school). Right now it's all shopping and car stuff and putting all manner of other things in order before school starts on Thursday.

This is made exponentially more time consuming by the fact that I lost my phone. Claire was teasing me on the phone while picking me up at the Century parking lot... when she got to where I was, I shut my phone and got inside. Sometime between shutting that phone and stepping out of the car at the end of the ride, I lost my phone. Name an angle of searching, I've covered it.

Apparently cannot pick up a new phone without my uncle there, and he is ill at ease about the whole situation because they might not give us a phone this late in the contract unless I spent a ton more money. It's difficult to make plans to pick my fish up, call for car appointments, arrange to meet with my uncle, etc. when all I have is a school phone three flights down. OH WELL. Tomorrow I will have my phone, and my fish.

Today I'm going to try to stay mostly in town on short errands to avoid car troubles, considering the whole lack of phone thing. Hoping to go out pick up my girl fish, Eve, and grab some food. Just went through my last nutri-grain. Might have a couple stale cookies somewhere, and still have rice...but I have learned shopping shouldn't be put off.

While at home, I want to make sure I have all my school books, call the car place for an appointment (oh dear better do that soon), unpack, and visit Jess and Lara. Hopefully I'll get a bit further in Lost -- I'm most of the way through season 4 and I REALLY want to be able to be on top of season 6 come February. I will no longer be immune to those cruel, cruel, Facebook spoilers. Human target premiered last sunday -- I know it's gonna end up being terrible, but I still want to see it for JEH. Need to watch that online as well.

My book for my parks management class is GIGANTIC. *hugs it* This semester will be rough, but very very worth it!

Got home to find out I finally got my adorable flan cell phone charm in the mail....with no phone to put it on :(

Kazzie bought me more icons. Must learn to update this thing more.

kazz also made this icon...Sharlto is trying to show that the claw can be used as a fork, and failing.

Heading back to fairbanks tomorrow. New year's resolution, if any: work on self esteem.

Anchorage trip was great. Hoping to update about trip more someday :D

ALSO I drew a thing. d9 related. If it is related to District 9 at all and is after the first five seconds, there will be spoilers. Thought I'd warn you.


"We can get you for this" by ~annakkah on deviantART

BRB downloading a billion icons.

Forgot if I've mentioned this...but I might as well quickly. I'm moving to Seattle when I graduate. :D Context for following quote, since Kazz lives across the border.

(9:01:03 PM) kelseychan: TWO AND A HALF YEARS
(9:01:06 PM) kelseychan: AND I WILL BE A TRAIN AWAY
(9:01:17 PM) OzoneInTheNative: THREE YEARS. I PROMISE.
(9:01:19 PM) OzoneInTheNative: *shot*
(9:01:21 PM) kelseychan: LMFAO
(9:01:24 PM) kelseychan: ROTFL
(9:01:26 PM) kelseychan: I
(9:01:27 PM) kelseychan: YOU
(9:01:28 PM) kelseychan: DANGIT
(9:01:29 PM) kelseychan: YOU JERK
(9:01:33 PM) kelseychan: YOU JERK
(9:01:33 PM) OzoneInTheNative: we need to make our own MLIA site
(9:01:37 PM) OzoneInTheNative: MLID9

Posting first and last sentence from each month in 2009 to finish off the year :D Sticking them next to each other for amusing jumps (I think about as disjointedly, anyway).


January: So, I should be going back to work but I will spend an entry bawwwwwing before doing so. oifshgfksjhgfkhdkjghfdkj KJHFKJHG FDS fjhs now to fill in the other scenes SO CLOSE AUGHKFDHGFS OKAY WORD WAR TIME IT'S 6:20

February: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v209/annakkah/screenie.jpg (first legit sentence:) fdhkjdhkjfdha freaking crochet. Where do you guys get 6 year old software for free? :D

March: night before a speech and I'm just now working on the outline. And the vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence.

April: I am officially in Wickersham 335 next fall. IT'S WORTH THE EXTRA CLICK.

May: Six years ago, I created a character for my nickname. Anyway, as was folding it up into a duffel-bag-like shape, I woke up.

June: I'm going to Russia a week from thursday, so I want to be able to communicate in Russian without getting shy, and have that help my team a lot. Zhelayte mne schastlivovo puti? :D ("plz wish me safe travels guys k")

July: Jarvis just told me Aurora-con announced at its last meeting that they're giving up. instead I kind of want to stay in bed all day now :(

August: A little over a week until I drive through fire and brimstone and end up in Anchorage. Ornithology, marine biology, gigantic clumps of twisted plastic -- anything is possible now!

September: I've always had a HUGE thing for 3d printing...though I haven't kept up with it recently. Will emphasize in the finish (maybe black and white?)

October: I'm trying to be better. what tomfoolery is this

November: Meme. I don't think I will.

December: Now that I've made an entry about my cliche drama llama writing, let's write the stereotypical BAWBLOG entry.

Don't have the last sentence for december yet, but it will probably have something to do with KAZZIE MEG AND BRI. See you next Thursday, dudes.

DONE WITH HELL SEMESTER. IF I COULD PLEASE PRESENT MY RECEIPT (WRITTEN IN BLOOD), I'D REALLY LIKE THOSE LAST FOUR MONTHS BACK. I MIGHT USE THEM TO BECOME AN ART MAJOR OR SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE CALCULUS.


THAT OUT OF THE WAY. ARE ANY OF YOU STILL CONTEMPLATING SEEING AVATAR? WORRIED ABOUT THE REVIEWS OF IT BEING UNORIGINAL?

WELL I HAVE TWO WORDS FOR YOU:


DO IT!!!!!




WELL GOTTA GO PACK BE SEEING YOU.

I...I just wrote WALL-E fanfic drabbles instead of studying for a couple hours. And kinda enjoyed it, if it weren't so ruining of my childhood adulthood.

What lows will I sink to in my procrastination?

Back to work. :|